I've been very excited about all the Erasmus stuff for a while. I applied to go to UK but there weren't vacants for me in there. English people don't want me. However, I was suggested to go to Sweden.

I felt kind of disappointed and desilusional about all the whole thing for a couple of days because it was not what I expected and I'd loved to study in England or Wales. I was a bit stomach sick as well which helped to increase my sadness.

But a friend of mine called Fatiha, who is also a classmate, is studying this year in Falun (Sweden) which is the place that people from the international office of my uni suggested me to go. Fati has told me that she is having an amazing time there despite of the cold weather and the snow (i love the snow, btw) and that she is talking a lot of English which is one the aims I have when I think about studying abroad. I NEED to improve my speaking skills in English.

Therefore, I've convinced myself that Sweden is a good place and I will love it there. Moreover, a lot of people is talking to me beautifully about Sweden and although sometimes I still feel a bit of a childish disappointment in a "i-wanted-to-go-to-uk-mummy" way, I remind to myself that the important thing is going to study abroad and that has to be the most important thing in my mind. The place is not that important.

Sweden is gonna be great and I'm sure of it.

Anyway, I'm scared. Going on my own to a different country where I know nobody and where my communication is going to be... let's say, reduced... I'm fucking terrified!!